On Tuesday’s Tangles

Tuesday was productive, insightful and tiring.I was up at 5:00 am and on my way ... flew to Calgary for 2 site visits ... and arrived home at 7:00 pm. Makes for a long day and my eyes are droopy droopy today. That said, the day was full of thought and passion and care. I cried at the first meeting ... I cried at the second meeting. The nature of the clientale served was heartwrenching and inspiring and emotional as only homelessness and HIV can be and I am inspired yet again by the people that I meet who are full of spirit and light and care and who work so incredibly hard at doing amazing jobs aimed at lifting humanity. I am full of hope in regards to the scope of care that we as humans are capable of and have decided to try and not let the petty meanderings of life pull me down in meaningless blundering angst. On the plane home, the tall lifting buildings of downtown became a tiny little area framed on my right by the mountainous skyline that even from the sky were large masses of beauty and other than majestic (which is so overused and a redundant way to describe the Alberta rockies) I am left mouth gaping open (as usual) and unable to find a more fitting description. Sigh. One day when I no longer am tied to the rules and regulations of my job that govern and own my behaviour, I am going to get out there and attempt to raise awareness of issues that I had in my naivety somehow thought were progressing along more quickly than they are. I really want to make some thought-provoking and awareness-building documentaries about the problems in our own backyards and wonderfully inspiring solutions that people work on with little resource base. I think it would be a good thing if done right and would fit into my mandate of ethical creativity. Ah, the projects I want to do and the ideas that I want to convey ... But for now, I must plow through the paperwork covering my desk with new hope and inspiration with regards to the job that I do ... I think that I am feeling old because there is so much that I haven't done yet and need and want to do and time is such a short commodity but I will tackle it with the knowledge that time is relative and in all honesty I have much of it yet to live ... Ah life ... it can truly be a wonderfully ever-changing experience ...